Travis Van Winkle

heh....

Sun, 22 Jul 2007 02:17:02 GMT

Well, it has been a while yes???? About three years or so.....I truly am sorry for whoever's birthday I have forgot (Amanda you are one of them) and for the people who I do not see on a regular basis anymore. Kinda sad that our lives diverged the way they have. So, update in numbers.

1. Got eye surgery and eyes got messed up. Glasses/contacts do NOT fix the probelm and I am unable to get my license back.

2. Brown Belt test for American Kenpo on the 27th. (Friday) Should be tiriing...

3. Birthday was the 13th of June

4. Brother turned 21 on 7th of July

5. I saw RJ working at Wal-mart

6. I now work for the state. ( Won't tell you how much I make)

7.Living in my apartment still

8. got a PS3

9. Got a Wii

10. Bought ninja gaiden sigma for the PS3. The graphics are SWEET!!! However, the game is HARD!!! Even on normal

11. Playing pokemon diamond and Pearl. I have almost 400 entries in my Pokedex

12. Mario Party 8 is fun

That's about it.

Hugs to everyone

Amanda....How's Susan??

interesting

Sat, 29 Oct 2005 03:26:02 GMT

Intersting lives you all lead... I wish mine was that exciting.. Heh I guess it is just in differant ways. Or maybe im a square??? I bought soul caliber 3 the other day.... great game. I saw my ex girlfriend Amanda for the first time in I think 3 or 4 years. I had all sorts of mixed feelings on that one. The past part of me felt angry and hurt and the present part of me said live and let live. Strange mindset. Well good job on whoever got jobs and to everyone who isnt doing quite well directly or indirectly. Hang in there it will be ok in time. MY CELL NUMBER IS 360-359-1602 so CALL ME IF YOU WANT TO TALK. Replies are accepted but not always answered back at once.

Martial arts seminar

Sun, 27 Feb 2005 03:57:19 GMT

I have come to the conclusion that a 4 hour seminar training with a 9th degree black belt hurts!!! Anyways, I start work for the state on march 7th and will be continuing to work there forever!! lol j/k well not much going on here besides the job thing and martial arts...I am considering moving into Yelm pending an open room at a friends house with a couple other people so we will see what turns up there. Now not to brag, but when a ninth degree black belt in American Kenpo says to me. "You've got talent, keep it up" that is good...right??? Anyways, not much going on...someone tell me whats up lately..

Picture

Tue, 08 Feb 2005 05:20:00 GMT

It has come to my attention that my picture sucks....any ideas anyone???

interesting

Tue, 18 Jan 2005 04:51:47 GMT

It has come to my attention that pepole know my lj name and i was un aware of this...Cassandra!!! Hows my little sis doin?? And Josh...how in the world do you know her??? Anyways, hope everyone is having a merry day...Rain sucks..and if you are trying to go to sleep and having trouble....think about this paradox....a dog walks up to you and says...all dogs are liars....put me to sleep in 5 min. flat...later...

Travis "The White Bruce Lee"

ninjas always win

Thu, 14 Oct 2004 04:01:40 GMT

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Ninjahonor's
Battle Imp
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Ilon

Backstabbing: 6

Dodgin': 10

Guts: 10

Magic Mojo: 7

Smackdown: 4

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Will your battle imp beat Ninjahonor's? Enter your name and fight.

Allen.....I OWN YOU!!! J/K

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Tue, 17 Aug 2004 04:15:57 GMT

Ok now Im homeless again......

God help me now...

What is the word of God??

Tue, 10 Aug 2004 15:11:39 GMT

In all the time I have been alive. I have believed there was a God. A force so powerful that we cannot see him. But sometimes he comes into our dreams. You ever have those dreams that mean something?? That was probably God talking to you. I hear most people say that they do not like the fact that they cannot control their own lives. This is wrong. For God gives you free will. You can choose what you want, or what God wants. You can choose to follow him or follow yourself. There is nothing wrong with being a leader, but a good leader is one who is able to follow also. To be too much of a leader is being a control freak and unable to truly lead. Take Amanda for example, she met this wonderful guy who she has known for a while but never got the courage up to date him or ask him the question (even though it is the guys responsibility) but now through a push of God they are together and as far as I can tell...happy. I have found someone like this recently. One who I have only known but a month but it feels like we have known each other forever. I love her already and I know in my heart that this is what God wanted. He IS a force in our lives...and that if you let him and accept him....he will take you and help you. Manda, maybe, just maybe if you believe in him, and then ask that he help you, he will probably make your life better than it is. If worst comes to worst you will feel differant. There is always a positive side to things. The reason why shadows are behind us is because we need not look on them. Instead we face towards the light. Or more like the light shines on the front of us. I can see God's work everyday now as I open my eyes. Amanda and Hap, Susan and Derek and how it is obvious God wants them to be together or else the distance would have torn them apart. How you get those dreams Amanda that you cant explain. But you just know. It is hard to seperate what you want and what God wants, but once you do you will find it easier and easier for you to do so and therefore follow the word of God. If any of you feel differantly, well to be honest, too bad. If you are pushed away from me because of my belief. Then I believe God wills it for one reason or another. As I have tried and sacrificed to be with people, so to has God sacrificed to keep me here. And I realized. I will not run a one way street with people any longer. It will either be a two way or a no way street. This is me and what I have to say.

Mon, 05 Jul 2004 06:14:36 GMT

If I do not remember your name...forget where you live...or just dont know your phone number...blame it on the concussion received from the other fucking idiot who hit me. But ask him when he gets out of the hospital...

Thu, 01 Jul 2004 17:30:42 GMT

Concussion, broken finger, bed-ridden....dont ask...

So true...I suppose

Mon, 21 Jun 2004 15:45:51 GMT

Your True Nature by llScorpiusll
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The quality that most appeals to you:	Sense of Humour
In a survival situation, you:	Fight, and enjoy it
Your hidden talent is:	A beautiful mind
Your gift is:	Genius
In groups, you:	Blend in
Your best quality is:	Your generosity
Your weakness is:	Your overbearing nature

Created with the ORIGINAL MemeGen!

Im 20 years old today...

Sun, 13 Jun 2004 18:24:35 GMT

ITS MY BIRTHDAY!!!!!! but no one seems to care I guess....

about the last update.

Fri, 11 Jun 2004 14:43:47 GMT

Heh.....I guess I was just talking to myself on the last update huh??? Oh well.

Spinning out of control...

Fri, 11 Jun 2004 14:43:14 GMT

Quick update before school I suppose. Well, some of you know why the title is the way it is. Manda was there to see the beginning of it. And well, it didnt get any better. Its funny, even on bad days though I can do my martial arts. Although they might not look as good as when I am doing them in the studio. I do not know what is going on with the strike coming September. I suppose I should look for a new job now huh??? Life actually isnt as bad as I put it its just right now it isnt the best. But if I look at it it is pretty damn good. I only pay 100 dollars in rent. I make 9.39 an hour for work. Plus time and a half on Sundays and double time and a half on Holidays (which I seem to work all the time). Dont have a g/f but that might soon change within the next month. MAYBE. You never know anymore. It was easy in high school. But out here it just kinda sucks. You cant really get to know the person before you date em. Its like a giant blind date. You just have to take your chances. Umm...working towards my green belt in Kenpo. Having fun doing that. Waiting for my friend Cody to come home which will be in July. And he will be home for a month. Awesome I think. Playing an old school game. Diablo 2. Heh,I just think of funny names for characters now. Pokey_Pokey is the name for my spear woman (amazon) Holy Hell for my Paladin etc. etc. etc.

Yeah....thats about it....I think....then again...ah fuck it yep its done.

.....

Wed, 26 May 2004 15:28:31 GMT

I push my fingers into my eyes, its the only thing that slowly stops the ache. But its made of all the things I have to take, Jesus it never ends, it pushes its way inside. If the pain goes on, I dont think Ill make it.....All I got is this pain.

I stolded it from Manda......

Sat, 08 May 2004 00:47:53 GMT

Instructions: Choose a singer/band/musician and answer only in song titles by them.

BAND NAME: INCUBUS

1. Are you male or female? - Shaft!

2. How old are you? - New Skin

3. Describe yourself: - Megalomaniac

4. How do some people feel about you? - Wish you were here

5. How do you feel about yourself? - You will be a hot dancer

6. Describe your ex(s): Psychopsilocybin

7. Describe your views on significant others and crushes: - Nice to know you

8. Describe what you want: - The answer

9. Describe how you live: - Clean

10. Describe how you love: - Just a phase

11. Describe your friends: - Favorite things

12. Where will you be in 5 years?

13. What are you most afraid of? - Sink beneath the line

14. Describe the world today: - Idiot box

15. Share a few words of wisdom: - Speak free

WHAT KINDA FU**** UP JOKE IS THIS!!!!

Thu, 22 Apr 2004 15:20:43 GMT

OK....this is probably going to sound a little crazy but....yesterday I got the word that one of my ex-girlfriends is married and is pregnant...so what you may ask??? Well let me tell you this....SHE IS ONLY 17!!!!! Oh, and she is married to a 21 year old. You still think so what??? whats that got to do with you??? Well....one of my best friends happens to be her brother. Yep, my friends younger sister is pregnant and married at the age of 17. So maybe this shouldnt bother me....but it does. Why??? Becuase my best friend is torn up by this...he has no idea whats going on....he still cant grasp the concept of her being married and a baby on the way AT 17!!! And I understand...I dated this girl 2 years ago. Even though we are not together anymore. I treat her as a sister. Furthermore, for all of you who went to high school with me...You might remember someone named Dan Booze who graduated with us in 2002. If you do you remember he was a bit of a loser. Yeah well the one that she is married to.....is his older brother!! So as you can see I am not too enthused about this idea..because I am pretty certain that if the younger brother is stupid....chances are that the older one is just the same. I am just sooooooo irratated about it because she is like my sister!!! I cant get over the fact that she is trying to grow up too fast and get married and have a kid at 17 years of age....17!!! 7fuckingteen!!!! Ahhhhhhh!!!! Now Susan this is almost similar to you and Derek BUT with some obvious differances...
1. You and Derek are going on 7 or 8 years now????
2. Even though youre getting married...it is reasonable after 7 or 8 years....not 7 God Damn months!
3. You dont have a kid yet....

So Susan....I admire you for not giving into that and trying to grow up too quick..Makes me not have to worry about you as much :)

Well thats it....I will now go beat on my punching bag....

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Thu, 15 Apr 2004 22:18:25 GMT

Life needs to hurry up and end.......NOW would be good......

...

Sun, 11 Apr 2004 13:34:09 GMT

And now Ive found myself
wish I was someone else
my hands are stained with love
wish I could take it away
I hide behind my shell
in time the pain will melt
my heart is stained with love
wish I could fake it....

I gave my life away
theres nothing left to say...

Why does the world always crash down on me???

Mon, 29 Mar 2004 06:14:19 GMT

You know maybe it has to do with everything catching up to me....or maybe it has to do with my not so good luck....maybe its because that just about everyone is greedy and wants money regardless of who you are, what you do, or how much money you have..... you say you have 400, they want 1000 etc. etc. etc.

Maybe thats not the problem after all. Thats just me venting anyways. And to those of you who know me, I dont do that much. But there are times where I wish I could just wash away all problems and be normal again without all the stress. Granted people are going through worse things than me, but it seems to all roll down on me. It's like Im falling and I cant regain my footing.

Maybe thats just me rambling?? Why is it that some people only like you because they can use you??? And when you realize it and dont take it anymore, they leave you. Why is it that when you do something good for yourself....someone always has to shoot you down and say that they themselves are better than you.....Just when you think you have reached a new level, someone who is selfish just shoots you down. Says you are not good enough. Says you will never match to someone else.

Then again......I dont even know what my problem is..I am rather pissed off....I think it is because of two things. 1st I was supposed to go see a movie with someone but they did not arrive. Next is the fact that I will listen to anyone that has a problem, but when I have one.....just about everyone leaves....no help.....they think Im strong enough to handle everything by myself. Should I just stop helping people??? No. That is denying my personality.

But even again.....I think to myself....why am I here??? Just to be me??? or to be something great??? Or just owe a lot of money like 70 percent of America...

Is it really worth it to go to school??? Why not be a con-artist...they rarly get caught and make lots of money....I dont see the problem there. But yet they are greedy....Do you have to be greedy to survive in this world??? Because if so. then my friends it will be a very short life for me. Life should be ruled by the sword and not politics. Yeah, lets pay a bunch of people to do something...We have more money. Who cares??? Lets get more...Becasue they think it will make them happy....and yet most of them die not knowing what true happiness is. If you have a b/f or a g/f right now...I hope you cherish them....because in this void.....there is no release....no rest....sleep is almost a waste of time now....

And then I ask myself...do I want to be here?????

Answer....NO

and then the void becomes peace.......

Interesting

Wed, 18 Feb 2004 02:12:29 GMT

The Seven Intelligence Areas

Linguistic: 6

Logical-Mathematical: 9

Spatial: 6

Bodily-Kinesthetic: 10

Musical: 8

Interpersonal: 9

Intrapersonal: 7

A Short Definition of your Highest Score

Bodily-Kinesthetic - the ability to use the body and tools to take effective action or to construct or repair, to build rapport to console and persuade, and to support others, to plan strategically or to critique the actions of the body, to appreciate the aesthetics of the body and to use those values to create new forms of expression.

For those of you who know me.....you all know why Bodily-Kinesthetic was a 10....I rock....:)

It is time.....

Mon, 26 Jan 2004 05:49:22 GMT

Well, I have had quite a bit of stunning things happen to me in the last few weeks/months. I have had friends getting engaged, people getting in car wreaks (me) and also relatives dying to one of my closer friends discovering inner power which might lead to a whole new her....which brings me to the subject. CHI. Some believe it does exist, others it doesnt. It is hard to describe it I suppose. An odd energy at first cause it is like something you have never felt. It is hard to say what it really is or if it is just a figment of imagination. I personally believe it does exist. With 14 years now of martial arts experience, I have come to believe you can draw up additional power to yourself other than physical. I have seen it, experienced it, and tried to teach it to others, but to no avail. But this is something new. Someone who has it and has experienced it, but cannot harness it. Something is blocking it. Stopping it from reaching all of her and in turn she cant concentrate because of it. It is hard to comfort someone who has this because usually these feelings are locked by the other. Never to be seen by anyone else. But that is the problem. The mind and the body needs to be totally free in order to focus and acheieve that state. Anger is one way of doing it. Because it releases all forms of energy at once. But it is chaotic, not going any one direction. It doesnt know friend from foe. But harnessed chi is a totally differant thing all on its own. It helps you not just in fight or flight situations, but in everyday life. People feel you, however much you may not believe it. Call it an aura if you will. Adrenaline is a great example. It helps you do things, conquer things, but once again is chaotic. You can screw up. I guess I am typing this specificly to one person to get her to realize that the chaos from the chi she is trying to harness will only bring her to personal madness. So, on my free time, sometime soon, I would like to stay with her a few days and try to get her to harness the energy. Because it is exeptionally odd for someone to experience this type of energy without any martial arts training or some form of mental/physical training. I believe if she harnesses this energy it could be the start of a whole new person. Then she can start martial arts. Either from me or some other teacher. That I am not worried about. I am worried about however, if she hurts someone as she has in the past with it again. "With great power comes great responsibilities" It cant be helped. It is a fact of life. But now even more I must practice my chi skills to better understand myself to help her. The training I have planned for her will be quite harsh. Not so much physically as mentally. I have got to get her to unlock the secrets or "locks" she is hiding. Whether it be total and complete rage that needs to get out. or possibly a secret she has never told anyone. So to the person who I am writing this to (you know who you are) I urge you to talk to me, tell me what is locking you up inside and refusing the energy to come out. That is all I have to say.

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Wed, 03 Sep 2003 00:36:01 GMT

Lets see....lots and I mean lots has happened. Lets see. I now have my second stripe on my purple belt and am going for my blue belt in American Kenpo really really soon. Umm....got in a fight with two people at about midnight in Tumwater. Heh bet they feel sorry they did that. But I really didnt want to fight. I was minding my own business and they wouldn't leave me alone. So I told them nicely to step away and one takes a swing instead. Well....some people never learn. I now have a tatoo of a dragon on my left shoulder. Right on the muscle. My next is a tiger on my right leg. Then that is it. I am going to get a new car or rebuild mine soon. We will see how that goes. And lets see. Oh I got a girlfriend starting today. Its funny everyone asks why the girls ARENT all over me and occasionaly I do wonder but other times Im just like whatever about it. So yeah after 6 months of being single I have a girlfriend again. Lets see how that goes. And and and.....well my cd collection has reached 174 now. Getting closer to 200. Ummm....Thats about it. Oh and I am enrolled in a technical college which I have been doing for about a month now. Interesting life it is. Now I just need to move out. Lets see how that goes. I wish I could move to Yelm. Like in the main town Yelm. Cause then I could get transfered to QFC in Yelm, take my classes there, and then all I would have to drive for is for school. So thats about it for those of you I have not talked to in a while. You have my number. I really would have called you. (manda you know this I rarely dont call someone in a month or so or even longer) but I will try to get a hold of loose ends and buddies I dare not lose to get together sometime. Well hope everyone is happy and whatnot. (Manda, why the hell are you horny all of a sudden????) Anyways, talk to ya later. Oh and Allen, Have some fun will ya?????

If life were a batting average....Id quit

Tue, 24 Jun 2003 19:33:37 GMT

Oh guess what???? Nothing interesting....again.....oh I guess I could shout out to everyone....Allen, my password is too easy to guess too!!! And toooo....Susan, life will get better eventually. May your boy problems go away...But youre just so damn cute!!! LOL and Manda Panda!!! Where in the hell are you!!! Havent heard from you in a while now.. Jen,keep being crazy cause I no longer have the time to do it. and to whomever I missed. sorry. Oh, I walk in the prarie days parade this Thurs. and I got a car wash this Sat. too. fun fun fun. Maybe Ill see some of you guys there.. That would be cool!!! Well susan I dont think Id see you....youre a little far away hehe. Anyways, that is it

survey

Fri, 20 Jun 2003 05:14:41 GMT

A - Age: 19
B - Band: type o-negative,orgy,linkin park,rob zombie, and others
C - Choice Of Meat: Chicken.
D - Dream Date: ummmm....with......jennifer love hewitt lol
E - Excites You: Good martial arts and all my friends in one group
F - Favorite Food: Dont really have a fave. anymore
G - Greatest Gift: love
H - Happiest Day Of Your Life: Dont know
I - Internal conflicts: *rubs head* If it came down to it...could I protect the ones I like and love???
J - Jealous: of all the martial arts superstars who I KNOW Im better than
K - Konstantine: Lost me
M - Most Valuable Thing You Own: All my weaponry....and my martial arts belt
N - Name: Travis, Trav, or whatever someone comes up with
O - Outfit: Black pants with a belt and a tight black undershirt with my sunglasses
P - Pizza Topping: Pineapple.
Q - Question I want to ask: How in the hell is everything sooooo expensive these days???
R - Roots: *blinks* Oro? That really long movie and book?
S - Sport to watch: Martial arts....K-1 is cool too
T - TV show: dont watch TV. but if i had to pick...Black Sash
U - Unique habits: Doing cool little tricks to accomplish simple tasks
V - View from the window: Nothing- it's black outside, and my blinds are
shut anyway. <--- yeah O.o;;;
W - Weather I Love: sunshine preferably....but for romantic occasions I dont really mind the rain
Y - Yesterday's best meal: *scrunches face* steak for dinner was good
Z - Zodiac Sign: Gemini

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Are you a girl? nope

What are you wearing? black pants white jersey....tiger print boxers....yeah....

Are you wearing makeup? Never do.

Do you polish your nails? Nope

Do you like pink? No. On girls it makes them look flirty therefore sexy etc.

Do you wanna save "it" till your married? *blinks* Whoa, mature question there. But I don't care either way,

Would you kiss on the first date? If I felt the urge to.

What would your ideal date be? Hard to say...soooo many things could change you kinda have to take it one at a time.

Do you like romantic songs/flicks? Sometimes, in small doses? Too much or romance or sapcrap makes me vaguely homicidal.

What would you do if your gf slept with another guy? Well first I would ask why??? then I would wonder if it was me...then Id realize that she is just a dirty tramp and walk away.

Are your friends "girlie" or "tomboy"? ...I have a mix of friends guys and girls but there are a couple that fit into that category

What do you like about yourself? Personality and activeness. I think Im pretty good at martial arts too.

What celeb do you think you look like? I was told when I wore a certain outfit I looked like a whit Jet Li

Do you like shopping? Not for clothes...

Would you ever kiss a girl who wouldn't want more then a hug? No, why would I?

Friends or girls first? Friends. Absolutely, completely and utterly. Even
if I were in love with someone (ha. ha. hahahahahahahaha), I could never,
EVER let them come before my friends. Even if they were a friend themself-
they'd have to know that they can't dominate my life, and friendship takes
priority over romance.

Ever sat there watching a chick flick, eating chocolate, and crying
because your heart was broken? nope
Best thing about being a guy? the strength and the physical advantage. But girls get the flexability
Worst thing? always get blamed for things

What would you do if you were a girl for one day? *grin* I dont know...have sex??? see what it feels like from the other end???
Do you want a gf? yeah

Are you crushing on someone? No.

current mood: thoughtful

current taste: *ponders* eggs I had for dinner
current hair: short....military style
current annoyance: work and the no money thing gets annoying too.

current smell: cant smell anything
current thing you ought to be doing: finishing my kenpo notebook
current desktop picture: My dog who died....
current favorite group: Rob Zombie/White Zombie

current book: Infinite insights into kenpo by Ed Parker
current refreshment: OJ

current worry: Will I make it????
current crush: None.

current favorite celebrity: Jet Li
who do you like: The people that I do... there aren't a ton.

who likes you: Um, friends, I hope... x.x; And... people? Maybe

what annoys you: childesh people...in the attitude way. People who are self-centered and get everything that they want.

what do you want to do: Go back to Australia

who is one person you never get sick of: Marie

do you sleep on your back, stomach or side?: Dont know
what would you take if you were stuck on a deserted island?: I dont know. Probably a willing friend... Preferably a girl and maybe some food.
who would you take to that island if you had to take anyone, dead or
alive?: A couple friends
do you like water?: Yes, only not iron tainted x.x

if your house was on fire and you could only save one thing: My martial arts belt
have you ever said `i love you` and not meant it?: *blinks* Hmm, I've allowed it to be taken in a way it wasn't meant. x.x; Which I've since stopped ^_^

what is your favorite sesame street character?: none
what time is it?: 10:32pm.

what time did you wake up this morning?: 10 am

who would you trade places with for a day Good question

have you ever been told you look like a celebrity?: Don't think so?

finish this sentence. "i wouldn't be caught dead.. ": "...listening to N*sync music wearing my bunny ears and underclothes. Although my epitaph would be quite interesting..."

do you regret any of your past relationships?: No

would you rather live in the mountains or by the ocean?: "I don't know.
depends on what mountains and what ocean." Last time you’ve...
cried: Dont know

bought something: wow a cd a while ago
gotten sick: Umm, recently? x.x;

eaten: toast
been kissed: about 2 weeks ago

felt stupid: Only when Im wrong
wanted to tell someone you loved them, but didn't: Hrm, often. talked to an ex: A while ago
talked to someone you have a crush on: Hmm, yeah.

had a serious talk: Er, a few days ago I think

missed someone: usually do.

hugged someone: Marie
Social Life...
girlfriend: None

interests: Check, they're in my bloody lj. x.x; Though I haven't really gone over them... that I shall!

pager: None.

are you center of attention or a wall flower: Generally I'm a wall flower, around friends I can be an attention hog.

what type of automobile do you drive: 1989 Ford Tempo LX

do you have a job: Yep

do you attend church: nope

do you like being around people: usually

who is your role model: Myself. I make me a role-model
have you ever liked someone you had no chance with: Maybe? I can't really
remember who I've liked.
have you ever cried over the opposite sex: yep
have you ever lied to your best friend: I don't think so? x.x; ever wanted to get revenge on someone because they hurt you: no....revenge is for the people who want to go to the others level

rather have a relationship or a "hookup": Relationship.

want someone you don't have right now: yep

ever liked your best girl friend: On and off for about a year

do you want to get married: Maybe

do you want kids: Mabye
what is your favorite part of your physical appearance: Body in general. I have a good build
what is your favorite part of your emotional being: How protective I am
are you happy with you: yep

are you happy with your life: No not yet
if you could change something in your life right now, what would it be: money problems so I would never have to worry about it again.